Shopping with a foot fracture

A shop assistant opened the curtain while I was trying on some trousers, without saying “Excuse me” or ‘Is anyone in there?”. I had left a shopping basket outside the curtain so it was a bit surprising she ignored it. When leaving the changing room, she said: “Sorry, but I didn’t see a wheelchair.” This was a strange thing to say because her colleague had indicated I could use the accessible changing room due to wearing an AirCast boot and being on crutches.

If I didn’t have a foot fracture I wouldn’t use the accessible changing room but I felt I needed to explain why I accepted her colleague’s offer to use it. I tried explaining that there are many kinds of disability, that I fractured my foot and have rheumatoid arthritis and osteoporosis, but didn’t elaborate. It would have been better if she had just apologised rather than referring to the lack of a wheelchair outside the changing room curtain.

Happily, most of my other experiences shopping on crutches have been good ones. People have offered to carry shopping for me around different stores, open doors, help pack bags etc. However, lots of shops still don’t have an accessible entrance, which is actually illegal under the Equality Act 2010, and public transport has a long way to go to get it right. Apart from the one incident, people have been really attentive and helpful, treating me like any other customer. For example, visiting a stately house with a huge garden recently I was able to borrow a wheelchair, and staff pointed out the accessible routes. As 1 in 5 people in the UK have a disability, I think shops and tourist attractions should make more of an effort to be accessible and the behaviour of their staff is just as important – i.e. everyone receives the same standard of service – otherwise people will just take their custom elsewhere.


Too young for osteoporosis

Her mouth gaped open. “But you’re too young to have osteoporosis, aren’t you?” We were sitting at the bus stop and a fellow passenger had asked what happened to my leg. Just nine months after my last foot fracture, I have broken the same toe (but luckily in a different place).

Since people are naturally curious, I don’t mind explaining that I’ve fractured a toe. They normally look incredulous that a broken toe joint means wearing a huge AirCast boot all the way up the knee. That’s when, depending on my energy levels, I explain that I have osteoporosis. If they ask more questions, I’ll tell them about the rheumatoid arthritis and Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome too. But sometimes, as I found before, it’s exhausting running through the same story time and again, so I’ll say “It’s a long story.” There are two reasons people look amazed – firstly, the notion that osteoporosis only affects older people, and secondly, that it’s possible to sustain a fracture without having an accident.

A few days ago I went to a support group for people with osteoporosis. We had a very good session on mindfulness. I found the practical guided exercise useful – being in the present moment, becoming more alert to things and stepping out of negative thoughts (about my body, pain levels etc). I liked the idea that ‘thoughts are like clouds; you are the blue sky and the clouds are going past’ – it is a great way to cultivate more positive feelings about a situation. Most of all, mindfulness is about experiencing the current time, not reminiscing about the past or planning the future. I’ve used these techniques before but it is much easier with a group. The challenge is to incorporate the practice into each day and to start to feel more in control of the situation (i.e. the foot fracture) than I did before.

Low neutrophils & fracture update

What a month! Number of medical appointments: 13, not including blood tests. Seeing specialists covering osteoporosis, rheumatology, dentistry, urology, podiatry, chest physiotherapy. Not forgetting fracture clinic and the GP. No wonder some people have asked if I work at the hospital! Now I have another specialist to add to the mix: the haematologist. It turns out that my neutrophils (a type of white blood cell) are consistently lower than they should be. I’m trying not to think about it too much but it is a bit worrying. This may well be linked to taking a biologic drug (Enbrel) for rheumatoid arthritis, as when I’ve had to come off this medication (e.g. during a chest infection) my neutrophil level has gone back up. It’s a matter of waiting and seeing at the moment. Sometimes it feels like I’m on a continuous loop of investigations and tests. It would be good to step off that conveyer belt for one week!

On a positive note, a recent MRI showed that the fracture in my right foot is healing gradually. After two months in an aircast boot and on crutches, I’m getting around a bit more easily. As I said before, it’s amazing how talkative people are when you’re wearing an aircast boot. It does look rather dramatic – as if I’ve broken my leg rather than one bone. Every day people regale me with their story of breaking a bone or without asking how I sustained the injury. Most of the time I don’t mind – but sometimes it can be exhausting – so then I just smile and say ‘long story’. In the early days, around three people a day thought I’d been skiing! The healing process does take longer – thanks to osteoporosis and Ehlers-Danlos syndrome. I can’t wait for the boot to be off in a few weeks’ time and celebrating afterwards!

Foot fracture


The podiatrist knew there was something wrong with my right foot immediately. It was hot to the touch, skin reddish, and swollen both on top and on the sole of the foot. My foot had been painful for some weeks but I attributed it to normal EDS and RA joint pain. Some days were worse than others. I started limping and regularly felt a stabbing, burning pain searing into my foot when walking.

So I was relieved to have an appointment with the podiatrist. They were going to fit my shoes with new, custom-made insoles. In the end, that didn’t happen. The podiatrist insisted on the rheumatologist assessing my foot straightaway. An x-ray followed which showed a fracture on my 3rd toe of the right foot. Looking at the x-ray was upsetting. Even though I had the evidence in front of me, I still couldn’t quite believe it. Nothing dramatic had happened. I had not been walking more than usual.

Now my foot is strapped up inside an AirBoot for 6-12 weeks and I have to use crutches. The rheumatologist said that I could be ‘partially weight bearing’ which makes a bit less daunting to get around, but it is still hard work on my arms and shoulders with the muscle wastage from RA. One cause for the foot fracture could be osteoporosis. Despite taking weekly osteoporosis medication and vitamin D daily, I have also torn two ribs. Balancing keeping active with minimising the risk of future fractures is going to be hard. It would be useful to know what more I could do to prevent more broken bones. Who wants to feel (or be treated) like a china doll? On the positive side, it’s amazing how many people offer me a seat now that my invisible conditions are seen as a visible disability. People chat to me everywhere – on public transport, at bus stops, in shops, in the road trying to get from A to B (slowly). A foot fracture is a minor setback for a few months but I don’t intend to let the fracture stop me living life to the full.

Rare Disease Day 2015 – report from House of Commons Reception

Rare Disease Day was last week. As someone with a rare disease (Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome), I decided to attend a Rare Disease Day event hosted by Rare Disease UK on Wednesday 26th February at the House of Commons. Speakers included Liz Kendall MP (Shadow Minister for Care and Older People) and Earl Howe (the Minister with responsibility for rare diseases). Other speakers were Fiona Marley (Head of Specialist Services at NHS England) and Alastair Kent OBE, Chair of Rare Disease UK. and Director of Genetic Alliance UK.

Although the words ‘rare disease’ suggest that rare diseases are uncommon, around 3 million people in the UK have a rare disease. Liz Kendall MP said that business, society and public services need to work together on rare disease issues. She issued a call to action to people standing in the room: “You must challenge and demand from us better results and support”. She continued: “Your voices must be heard, not just the most powerful”. This was an important point to make – that care should be patient-centred.

Earl Howe, Minster for rare diseases, said that the past year has seen some important steps, referencing Genomics England’s work sequencing thousands of genomes. The 100,000 Genomes Project (owned and funded by the Department of Health) is sequencing 100,000 whole genomes from NHS patients by 2017. They are focusing on patients with a rare disease and their families and patients with cancer. Earl Howe said that so far, 2,200 families have been recruited and out of the 100,000 genomes, more than 15,000 will be sequenced from rare disease patients. Earl Howe mentioned that NHS England is establishing 11 new genome medicine centres which will engage with patients taking part in the 100,000 Genomes project. Other initiatives he talked about included a National Disease Register – which aims to collect data on every single person with a rare disease in England.

Fiona Marley, Assistant Head of Specialised Services for NHS England, spoke about the 145 specialist centres for people with rare diseases in England. Crucially, she said that current NHS England research focused on the experience of people with rare diseases should lead to an improvement in the quality of their lives, i.e. the results will inform future services and support offered. Alastair Kent¬†OBE,¬†Chair of Rare Disease UK (RDUK), also spoke at the event but unfortunately I didn’t manage to capture what he said. Looking back on the event, it was exciting to hear about so many projects related to rare diseases. I never realised that there is a rare diseases advisory group within NHS England for example! There is even a UK Strategy for Rare Diseases (published in 2013). This time next year it will be interesting to see how much more progress has been achieved (in terms of awareness and support) for people with rare diseases.

Stopping Enbrel again

Since early December, I’ve hardly injected Enbrel. First I had a chest injection, followed by two weeks of antibiotics. Then my neutrophils stayed consistently low, so I’m in a state of limbo, unable to inject. I’m having weekly blood tests until they return to normal. It’s been particularly frustrating as I was full of optimism about restarting injections after treating the chest infection. Enbrel is the only rheumatoid arthritis drug I’ve tried that’s had any kind of beneficial effect. Plus it’s stabilised my bone erosions, reduced inflammation and swellling, and given me more energy. Essentially, it was starting to give me my life back. I had exciting plans for the start of 2015 that I’ve had to put on hold for a while.

To try and exercise some control over the situation – although I don’t know how likely it is to make a difference – I’ve tried to make some dietary changes such as introducing meat into my diet again and eating even more vegetables than before. Crucially, I’m trying to get 8 hours’ sleep a night as I’ve been sleep deprived over the past two months. Being off Enbrel has reminded me how effective it is because without it my joints are swollen and stiff, it’s hard to get out of a chair and walk, and I’m the most exhausted I’ve been for weeks. I’m distracting myself from the weekly blood results by reading, listening to music and seeing friends. Hopefully waiting for my neutrophils to return to ‘normal’ will be over soon so I can get back to injecting Enbrel.

Invisible Illness Awareness Week 2014

It’s Invisible Illness Awareness Week 2014 from 8-14 September. This time last year, I wrote about keeping positive. Lots has changed in a year. Anti-TNF treatment (Enbrel) has started to make a difference to my joints by stabilising my existing bone erosions and reducing swelling, stiffness and pain in my joints. But the rollercoaster nature of rheumatoid disease / arthritis means that missing most of my injections over the past month due to illness and antibiotics has reversed this progress. Once again, I’m having a nasty flare, with incredibly swollen and painful wrists. I can’t wait to restart the drug later this week and hopefully see those positive results again. I’m staying positive as much as possible but it is harder to maintain an optimistic outlook when even simple tasks like getting out of bed or the bath are a struggle. Getting back on the medication should improve my quality of life again.

The need for Invisible Illness Awareness Week remains as important as ever. Just yesterday, in a shop, I asked a member of staff about the ‘accessible’ facilities. She said casually, not even noticing my hand splints, ‘Oh, those are for disabled people’. I replied ‘I am disabled, I have rheumatoid arthritis and Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome’. She looked down at my hands, and didn’t seem either apologetic or embarrassed but reluctantly proceeded to show me to a room away from the main shop floor, only reachable by staff with a security pass. What upset me was that she had such a narrow view of disability that she hadn’t stopped to think why I was specifically asking for the ‘accessible’ facilities. Wearing splints sometimes makes people more sympathetic, but mostly elicits stares, although she didn’t even notice! Plus I shouldn’t even have to wear an obvious aid such as splints to make my invisible illnesses visible. What people with invisible illness need is greater awareness and understanding so that when we ask for specific help to make life easier, it is available and offered instinctively, no questions asked.